Britney's Suicide Note

Sharon · Posted: Wed Jan 16, 2008 1:21 am Post subject: Britney's Suicide Note

Troubled singer Britney Spears wrote a suicide note before being rushed to a psychiatric ward earlier this month, it has been revealed.

The note, found in her bathroom by a friend, revealed the depth of the singer's despair and her fears that she will not live up to other people's expectations.

Britney has reportedly been suffering from mental health problems for years, including manic depression and multiple personality disorders and doctors and friends believe she needs urgent help.

The source told The Sun: "The letter was very sad. Britney talked about her loneliness, how unfair life is and not being able to trust people.

"She wrote about how she will never be what people want her to be.

"She said 'Perhaps it would be better if I was dead."

No stranger to crazy behaviour, Britney Spears' shocking antics continued on a recent trip to an LA clothing store, where Britney emerged from the fitting room - stark naked.

Accompanied by her photographer boyfriend Adnan Ghalib, the star disappeared into the dressing room with him, spending nearly an hour making "strange" noises.

The 26-year-old mother of two shocked the saleswoman in the shop, who made an attempt to cover her up, but was faced with a litany of abuse.

The shop assistant told Life & Style: "I was blown away. Britney's private parts were right in front of me!"

"I grabbed a dress to cover her and she screamed, 'Get away from me! Don't you f***ing come near me!'" says the employee.

"Then she disappeared in the dressing room with Adnan for 45 minutes. They were making weird noises. It was disgusting."

When Britney and Adnan finally emerged, Spears mumbled something unintelligible.

"I couldn't understand a word she was saying. She was slurring and spitting, and talking with a British accent," says the employee.

"Her face was covered with cold sores and acne, and her scalp was patchy. I wanted to help her, but she was so mean that I left her alone. Then she muttered, 'F**k you!' and left the store."

Britney recently lost the right to see her sons because she was too busy waiting for a home furniture delivery.

The singer arrived at her custody case nearly four hours late - but even then didn't enter the courtroom.

At the last minute, the star decided not to attend the hearing, and drove off to a church, saying: "I'm scared. I want to get back into the car."

She has since confided to friends that she was late for the court appearance because she was waiting for furntiure to be delivered to her Malibu home.

Wearing a white, wedding-style lace dress, Britney, who was accompanied by Adnan, climbed back into a black jeep.

She was then driven by a posse of bodyguards to a brown clapboard church, where she stayed for about five minutes before leaving again, trailed all the time by a convoy of paparazzi.

During her brief visit to the chapel, Britany left a personal note in a prayer box known as a "God can".

The latest episode in the troubled singer's very public unravelling may have put her hopes of a reunion with her children in jeopardy.

Spears lost all visitation rights earlier this month after she refused to hand over Sean, two, and one-year-old Jayden in a bizarre custody-stand-off at her Beverly Hills mansion.

As for the public's obsession with the rise and fall of the former couple's fortunes, it was all perfectly understandable, her ex-husband Kevin Federline, 29, has told a US magazine.

"Even though everything is so publicised and everybody is looking at it, it's normal for us," he said.

"People put it on this pedestal when it's really the same way that everybody else goes through their stuff, you know? It's not really any different."

He added: "I think the infatuation with the whole thing is that watching us go through things makes other people feel normal."

As for Britney, she remained behind locked doors at her house all morning on Monday as the hearing began without her several miles away to consider her children's fate.

It wasn't until the case was more than three hours into testimony that she was finally spotted lingering in the road outside her home smoking a cigarette before finally getting into a black jeep and making the 20-minute drive to the court.

Sporting a new mohawk hairstyle and a blue suit, Federline turned up early with his lawyers at Los Angeles Superior Court.

The singer's lawyer was also said to be at the private hearing on time before Commissioner Scott Gordon.

But Britney was delayed reportedly because she was "waiting for delivery of a piece of furniture".

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